Wednesday, September 13, 2006
WHY I BELIEVE IN THE GODDESS
I would love to say I started believing in the Goddess because I was led to her by some dramatic event in my life, or some one said 'hey, why don't you believe in the Goddess, it's cool.'...nah...nothing like that..I started out being very suspicious of religion at an early age..I was pretty much left to my own when it came to religion..neither of my parents were church goers..although both of them had parents that went to church..well, my Daddy's daddy(Daddy Red) didn't..He was a Baptist, but he was against the church that my grandmother,(Big Mama) went to..I wish I could remember which was which...but I can't..but one was a 'hard shell' and one was 'foot washing'...I swear this is true..and which ever one Daddy Red was..Big Mama was the other..and they twain never ever met..even when he was in the hospital and wasn't expected to live..he forbid Big Mama's preacher from coming into his hospital room...Big Mama is the one that first called me a pagan..this was when I was just a kid..and she also called me a papist...I had no idea what that meant..My Mother said it was because she was a Catholic and Big Mama was a Baptist and they believed differently...I thought, Damn....I wanna be one of them...just to piss Big Mama off...even as a kid I knew she didn't like me like she did the rest of the cousins...first of all she wasn't allowed to spank me...that really pissed her off...My Mother said you whip her....I whip you....I was a tad spoilt...So when I was 12 I started taking catechism to be a Catholic...Oh man..did I have a field day....The Priest was an Air Force Catholic Chaplin...Father Cornelius....I argued each and every step of the way..where I earned the nick name from him...Varmint.. (hmmm. I just looked that up in the dictionary.means a person or animal that is troublesome.yup..that's me...)anyhow..(this may be a long story)...I was his first convert and only convert..so I got solitary lessons...and I made him earn his pay...I would come straight from the swimming pool, hair wet, shorts, barefooted...and ready to bring him to his knees, as the crap he was feeding me I wasn't buying...Putting a seed in Mary's ear so she would get pregnant with Jesus and have a virgin birth...(hey, it was 1955 or '56...Poor Father)...I didn't buy the dying, raising from the dead 3 days later,I didn't believe in the virgin birth...I didn't believe any of it...but I wanted to be a Catholic so I could piss Big Mama off..so I went along with the program..got baptised and took my first holy Communion...and couldn't wait to go to Mesquite and tell Big Mama I was a real paptist now...It's hard to make a 4'6" 200lb. woman blow up like a frog..but it can be done...because I did it....man she was pissed...Daddy asked me later if I could have chosen any religion what would it have been....I thought for a moment and said'anyone that would make Big Mama mad'...Daddy got me...so up until I decided that I didn't believe in anything...I was a Catholic.
But by the time my kids were 10 years or so..I was pretty much an athiest...then at some point I decided I was an agnostic, as I wasn't smart enought to know for sure...Then by the time my Daddy died I was fed up with with it all...Then one day...after Daddy had died...I was drunk, crying, swearing at what ever God that was listening...and then it dawned on me...There was no God and no one was listening..and other than my Daddy...no male had ever listened to me or did a mother fucking thing for me..so why the fuck was I worrying about a God...I had put myself in the wrong hands...No male God was going to listen to my prayers
and no male God was in My corner...so I started reading about female Gods.....Goddess's..if you will....and found out that mankind started out worshiping a Goddess, mainly because they knew that women brought forth life...and they hadn't figured out that them having sex with us led to that life...so things were jake for along time...fertility Goddess's were worshiped
then the men got smart and figured out that the women couldn't give life with out that tiny little dick of theirs.
(I'm assuming that they were small as we all were a lot smaller then.)But Goddess's were still worshipped...right up until Christianity came about...Then they not only wiped out female Goddess's they stole our pagan holidays and used them for their own, they wanted to make it a male dominated religion so they either made the women in their religion moms or ho's..and as far as I'm concerned we have been fucked every since...The female Goddess's may have required an occasional human sacrifice to help with the crops but at least they didn't require us to go out and kill in her name..All the Goddess wanted was fertile animals, fertile crops and fertile females...she didn't want us to kill for her..she just wanted peace and prosperity...so it sounded good to me..so I thought..'it can't be any worse than what I have going for me now.'
When I think of 'the Goddess'...I don't think of some slim, big busted long haired beauty flitting around with a little wand..I picture a mother...a 6' foot tall mother with huge breasts that have nursed and fed us all and a big belly from bringing the world into being.I'm not sure she is your Goddess, I don't know that she answers prayers because if she does have this job, she is pretty busy cleaning up after Bush and his crew.. and doesn't have time to except thanks from actors singers and sports people getting bogus awards.I don't know if she is Goddess to all women or all men...or to the entire world...I know she is Goddess to me and if she doesn't answer my prayers I at least think she knows I'm here and keeps my ass out of trouble as much as she can..
So......there you have it...and if you are listening to me Goddess...protect and keep my friends safe. Because if their God is the same God that Bush has...they are in big ass trouble...awoman...(by the way you can click on goddess worship on my blog roll...I'm not recruiting..just thought it would be interesting to you.)