2nd posting..this is to remind me how lucky I am, and how good I actually have it. sorry about the harsh yellow but thats what I used to use. To make it easier for everyone who had to go search and find this..I decided to repost it..Most everyone already has read this, so hope you don't mind a rehashing of it...thanks again for always being there for me...jac
First off, I want to thank all of you for your kind, sweet words of comfort and encouragement...You have no idea how much it means to me.I don't think I ever gave too much thought about what I was going through or what I had been through..I'm like a Niki commercial...I just did it...Don't think I am all that special either..many women have been through worse.(The man who killed my mother got 8 years in prison) But I hate to tell you all,you ain't seen nothing yet.
Jack had many many problems, without going into his home life or events that happened to him before he met me, he was a very troubled man. He needed fixing and I guess that is what drew me to him. He was 6' and weighted about 230 or so...Loved his daughter as much as he knew how..He had many addictions, mainly alcohol but when he couldn't drink he took any and all medications he could..I'm talking hand fulls of black beauties, and an equal amount of tuinals.On that July evening in Farminton, New Mexico he had enough of both to have killed any 2 normal sized men...He was out of control and had been experiencing petite mal seizures.He was for all practical senses..insane..He was going to kill me and my 17 month old daughter and to protect her life and mine, plus my sons, when he attempted to kill us I shot and killed him. I was first charged with murder but eventually after a grand jury it was dropped to voluntary manslaughter.On more than one occasion they were going to drop the charges completely to self defense, but Jack's mother wouldn't let it go and called everyone that held office in the state of New Mexico, so they told my attorney that I would surely be found not guilty but because of my mother-in-law, I would have to stand trial...The DA was furious...said it was a waste of money and time.
In Dec. of 1974 I was found not guilty..During the time from July to Dec. I had met a wonderful man, Chuck D. he has been my lover and always my friend..it's been 33 years and he is still one of my best friends... He lives in Hawaii.and I can tell you he helped me in more ways than I can tell you..I moved to Calif. to be near him and it was the start of the rest of my new life...(the pictures above are the 4 of us taken at my Daddy's about a week or so before the shooting, the other one is me the day before the trial..I know they said I would be found not guilty..but I don't think I really believed them...By the way, it took the jury a little over an hour to come in with the verdict..they said they would have been in earlier but they wanted that last free meal on the state of New Mexico..When one of the jurist told my Daddy that, he said hell, I would have bought you all dinner if I had known.I know that I would never have made it with out my Daddy.I wonder what he would think of my blog and posting about this...oh well...
But I wasn't the only one having a bad year....Richard M. Nixon got fired from being president..so something good did come out of my less than stellar year.
Patty Hearst had a bad year also...she got kidnapped by the Symbionese Liberation Army.I don't remember some of the music from this year...was a little busy...but I sure love the ones I do remember...and think my favorite song of the year was 'Midnight at the Oasis' by Maria Muldaur.But there was 'Counting out Time' by Genesis, 'Summer Breeze'by Isley Brothers, 'Seasons of the Sun'by Terry Jacks,'Bungle in the Jungle' by Jethro Tull,and Elton John had a great year with'Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me, The Bitch is Back, and Benny and the Jets.'A great dance song...'the Bump' by Kenny(didn't they kill him on South Park????)'Jungle Boogie' by Kool and the Gang.'Sweet home Alababma'by Lynyard Skynyrd.'Long Legged Woman Dressed in Black,' by Mungo Jerry.
My oldest son David loved Olivia Newton-John's 'I honestly Love You.' 'Killer Queen'by Queen, 'Money' by Pink Floyd,and a couple of hits by the Stones,'Ain't To Proud to Beg and It's Only Rock and Roll.''Ricky Don't Lose That Number'by Steely Dan, 'Another Saturday Night' by Cat Stevens and a Barry White song that is still one of my favorites'You're the First the Last My Everything.'Plus a song that still makes my ass red...'You're Having My Baby'by Paul Anka.ABBA had a bunch of hits,'Walter Leo, Honey, Honey and Ring Ring.''How Long'by Ace, 'Midnight Rider' by Greg Allman and 'Jesica'by Allman Brothers Band.'James Dean' by the Eagles, 'the Joker'by Steve Miller Band, 'Clap for the Wolfman'by Guess Who and'Tin Man' by America.'Taking Care of Business and You Ain't Seen Nothing yet' by Bachman Turner Overdrive.'Can't Get Enough' by Bad company. David Bowie had a string of hits also, 'Diamond Dogs, Rebel, Rebel, and Rock and Roll Suicide.'
'Ride 'em Cowboy'by Paul Davis.Paul McCartney had hits with'Band on the Run and Get Junior's Farm' 'Smoking in the Boys Room'by Provensville Station, and 'I Shot the Sheriff' by Eric Clapton.'Kung Fu Fighting'by Carl Douglas.'The Loco-motion' by Grand Funk Railroad, 'Roxette' by Dr. Feelgood and 'Kissing in the Back Row of the Movies'by the Drifters. ohhhh, and 'the Piano Man'by Billy Joel.
'Don't Rock the Boat'by the Hues Corporation, 'Ma-ma-ma-Belle'by Electric Light Orchestra,'Cat's in the Cradle' Harry Chapman, 'Best of my Love' by the Eagles,'Billy Don't Be a Hero'by Bo Donaldson and the Heywoods.Last but not least a song I have taken to my heart for these past years....'Haven't Got Time for the Pain' by Carly Simon...
Iam not sure how, or sometimes even why.....but I made it through it...all of it...some not spoken..as I don't want to make Jack out to be all bad...he was a sad man, who had many faults but he was a good son, brother and friend. He tried to be as good a father,son,and husband as he could....
I'm not posting any pictures besides the two up top...just kinda want to get this posted and out of me...
