Oh....Lord....I wannnnna go home...
(what I am missing)
(what I am missing)
I am soo lonesome for my life..Jenny graduates from college the 16th of August..My nephew and his wife are supposed to come down for Westfest on Labor Day Weekend..I don't know how many trips the old truck has in her and if I go home Tuesday for 2 days..come back..and then have to drive back for Jenny's graduation and back..then go back again for Westfest and back...my truck is apt to curl up on I-35 and croak..
Plus..this (in George Bush whiny voice)..is hard...it's hard work..fuck..there goes Bolish..be back..
He was wandering around in the front yard..then the stupid yippy dog goes out with him and he doesn't want to come back so I have to chase his dumb ass all over the fucking neighborhood..and then Bolish takes off again..phew...it's hard...hard work..ha..
Last night he had an 'accident'..cleaning up human poop from 2 bathrooms, the carpet, sheets, bed pads,clothes etc. is not my idea of a way to spend an early Sunday morning...I know there is a Johnny Cash song in there someplace..
I know I had told Lane I would do this for 2 months..but this is more difficult then I thought it would be...It's not like you can really carry on a conversation with him, as he doesn't remember anything for more then 30 minutes..so there is a lot of repeating..lots of repeating...there will be the hours of no sound..then he will start talking...which is nothing more then words strung together..and if you don't make the right reply to his conversation..he gets really snippy..which is no big deal but after the 5-6Th time...it gets a little wearing..and if I'm not cleaning up after Bolish..I'm cleaning up after the yippy fucking dog...
Lane is supposed to be taking Blanche(the mother) to Marble Falls to a nursing home this Monday...she can probably get Bolish in too, but wanted to wait and see how she adapted and how he reacted to the thought of him going too..So maybe if I can get her to make some sort of arrangements where I can stay here till right before Jenny's graduation and then just go home..I just feel so guilty that I am not holding up to my end of the deal..fuck...What to do what to do...And I need to just get away by myself for a few hours or I'm going to be in the room next door to Blanche..sigh..*....So you guys tired of listening to me whine and feel sorry for myself yet?..I am getting tired of hearing it my ownself..
Gotta go..would stay longer but a couple of astronauts took a rocket out for a joy ride and are doing loops over head..I heard one exclaim as they drove out of sight:"To the moon Alice...to the moon."
Plus..this (in George Bush whiny voice)..is hard...it's hard work..fuck..there goes Bolish..be back..
He was wandering around in the front yard..then the stupid yippy dog goes out with him and he doesn't want to come back so I have to chase his dumb ass all over the fucking neighborhood..and then Bolish takes off again..phew...it's hard...hard work..ha..
Last night he had an 'accident'..cleaning up human poop from 2 bathrooms, the carpet, sheets, bed pads,clothes etc. is not my idea of a way to spend an early Sunday morning...I know there is a Johnny Cash song in there someplace..
I know I had told Lane I would do this for 2 months..but this is more difficult then I thought it would be...It's not like you can really carry on a conversation with him, as he doesn't remember anything for more then 30 minutes..so there is a lot of repeating..lots of repeating...there will be the hours of no sound..then he will start talking...which is nothing more then words strung together..and if you don't make the right reply to his conversation..he gets really snippy..which is no big deal but after the 5-6Th time...it gets a little wearing..and if I'm not cleaning up after Bolish..I'm cleaning up after the yippy fucking dog...
Lane is supposed to be taking Blanche(the mother) to Marble Falls to a nursing home this Monday...she can probably get Bolish in too, but wanted to wait and see how she adapted and how he reacted to the thought of him going too..So maybe if I can get her to make some sort of arrangements where I can stay here till right before Jenny's graduation and then just go home..I just feel so guilty that I am not holding up to my end of the deal..fuck...What to do what to do...And I need to just get away by myself for a few hours or I'm going to be in the room next door to Blanche..sigh..*....So you guys tired of listening to me whine and feel sorry for myself yet?..I am getting tired of hearing it my ownself..
Gotta go..would stay longer but a couple of astronauts took a rocket out for a joy ride and are doing loops over head..I heard one exclaim as they drove out of sight:"To the moon Alice...to the moon."
