I HEART MY SECRET ADMIRER

Well, she's not secret to me..but she doesn't want me to tell anyone who did this...but as of the 9th of this month I will have a paid subscription for the DAM News for 6 months..This friend who is now in the will along with all of you for the help with Annie, wants to remain anonymous..She won't even give me her address so I can send her a card. I wish she would so I could send her a book just for her..I had a ton, it would be no big deal but would make me feel better about the wonderful gift..How did I get so fecking lucky to have such wonderful friends..I feel like Sally Fields..." you like me...you really like me."...Plus I've been bummed out because Mothers Day is coming and it's a time of the year where I feel like a piece of shit, because I might hear from Mojo if she's not having some crisis. But nothing from the others. Plus the granddaughters remember they're mother but don't think about Grandma on mothers day...so it's a day I dread...really fucking dread..But then I get this fantastic gift from a person who only knows me from what I put out here every day ...All of you that contributed to the Annie fund and gave from your heart make me feel tons better.. Babs is taking me out for dinner at Pizza House for Mothers day as she is more like one of my kids that my own. and a email from Shady put me over the top..this is what I got today

for you. You were and are a good mother! unfortunately you have shitheads for kids. Not your fault. You said when we lived at the mini compound you didn't know what was going on because you were drinking too much. when we lived at the mini compound you worked! you worked two jobs. you were dating chuck and you weren't a drunk. you were not drunk all the time because you were working two jobs! Stripling blake and the beer joint. You stayed home every evening because you wouldn't leave the kids alone. David and Thom were at an age where they were acting out. For some unknown reason neither Maryjo or Thom told you or me or any other adult about the problem with their older brother. Not your fault either. MaryJo's problems are her own creation along with the genetic chemical imbalance of Jack Denney. Lots of people have parents who drink or who work and aren't around. some don't have problems, some do and some blame their parents. Once again, it's not your fault. Considering your background who do you have to blame? Mine? if I went to school as black and blue from my mother beating me up today they would have put me in foster care. So? I have anger issues but it didn't ruin me or you. Stop punishing yourself over your adult children's behavior problems which are theirs not yours. unfortunately it effects you but it's not your fault. You were and are a good mother. Happy Mother's Day!

Ok..I'm going to go cry now..and go read my DAM News...In the words of the immortal Billy Pilgrim...I fucking love you sonsabitches.