I'm a pagan...I'm a liberal..I live in West, Texas..

Friday, November 09, 2007

.......MY 17TH ANNIVERSARY....of sorts


Seventeen years ago today..I stopped drinking...I actually thought it was 16 years, but found an old calender(told you I never throw anything away) and had the date on it and the year...so I was off an entire year..can't blame that on being drunk...missed an entire year and I was sober..I wish that it was my 27Th year...or 37Th year..or the fact that I had never drank at all...but can't cry over spilt whiskey..although I can't think of a better reason to cry...I wonder how different my life and my kids life would have been if I had never drank...well, can't go back in time and change things, but at least my grand kids have no memory of me drinking..which is a good thing..I have such little interest in drinking at all that I know if the medical community discovered a magic pill that you could take and would let you drink like a normal person, I still wouldn't drink...I admit, sobriety does cut down on the excuses for some of my bad behavior, but after all these years...I found out I don't have to be drunk or drinking to say or do outrageous stuff..That was one of my fears when I quit drinking that I would lose being me..the funny,in your face wild Jackiesue...nope..it was never the alcohol..it was always just me.The alcohol just made me better, or worse as the case may be..I asked my Aunt Leola once what I was like when I was little and she said 'just like you are now, except shorter.'...how scary is that..I remember once when I was about..oh...4-5years old, my Daddy told me an old family friend was coming and not to tell my Mother as it was a surprise...well, I told..and he said'I will never tell you another secret again.'...and as I walked away all dejected, I said:"ahhhh, fuck.'.
I got bipped in the back of the head for that one,but for the rest of the day every time Daddy and Mother looked at me, they would burst out laughing...
I am going to the family reunion in Houston this Sunday..Hopefully Jenny and Jamie will go with me..Monday is my 64Th birthday and I share it with my cousin Cheryl..Shady Lane sent me a 'Dolce Gabbana' brown suede saddle bag type purse...it's smoother then a cats ass..It sorta looks like this purse, but softer and slouchier...She got it while she was in New York for her vacation..she visited an old friend who is a professor at Rockefeller University and he sent me two Bush bashing t-shirts, which I will wear to the reunion..I have been trying to find someone to make me a 'WHAT WOULD THE GODDESS DO'
t-shirt...but want me to order over a hundred, they don't do just one..so will have to make one myself I guess...But I figure the t-shirts will have my cousins all out in force praying for me..Hopefully I will have a ton of stuff to post about from the reunion...
Oh...almost forgot..went to library yesterday and Samuel my 21/2 year old little buddy ran up to me..threw his arms around my knees and said"weed to me wacky."...made my day..
Ps...all you folks with kids..?..if you are still buying them toys made in China, you're schmucks...just saying.

13 comments:

jan said...

congratulations on the years of sobriety and I'm glad the real Jackiesue remains and doesn't need the brain killing sauce to be the sweet fucker she is. I only swear on this blog.

BYG said...

congratulations on seventeen years of sobriety Jackie! I couldn't even begin to imagine you needing ANYTHING in order to say or do something outrageous.
Love ya!

BBC said...

So you stopped drinking, that is cool if you needed to because you drank too much. But some of the most famous people of the past that changed this world in better ways were drunks.

And some of the people that make it a worse world are not. King Bush for example. Worried? I am.

And it's okay to be wild and crazy, just don't go insane. Hugs.

Junebugg said...

I've never been a big drinker, but I used to indulge in lots of other bad habits! It's a wonder I have a functioning brain cell left....

I'm glad you survived the sauce, got some friends who wound up killing themselves drunk driving or by ODing (yeah, you can actually drink yourself to death)
The world wouldn't be near as sweet without Jackie Sue in it

High-Maintenance & Hostile Heidi said...

Congratulations, Jackie! Seventeen years sober is a huge accomplishment! Whoo hoo!

Have fun at the reunion!

Winston said...

Whether 16 or 17 years, that is one helluvan accomplishment. So Congratulations! And Happy Birthday on Monday. I'll tip a cold one your way... Do something really nice for yourownself...

kath said...

Good on you! I am proud of you for being able to quit. I had no idea that you have been this way since before you were 4 though... lol

Thanks for the offer to bip the loonies.. you can stay at my place.

I am going to go and hide under my bed now, so I do not leave the house.
I can't afford to .

Have a fabutastic time at the reunion.... I will be waiting to hear about it , and Happy Happy Happy birthday tomorrow Jac!

Allan said...

Woot! Good job! You are inspiring.

Blue Momma said...

Congrats on 17 years! Quite an accomplishment and one so many people try, but fail to achieve. You rock!

Have you tried Cafe Press? I think they'll print shirts, but I'm not sure of the terms. I know my Moms group had some printed and I know we didn't buy 100 or even 20.

You ever get XP up and running?

yellowdog granny said...

jan:I love being a bad influence..
byg:yeah, I don't need any help being inappropriate...but booze sure did help me push that envelope till it ripped ...
bbc:jeez, no I haven't drank in 17 years because it made me glow in the dark..that and fuck guys I wouldn't even talk to if i was sober..
junebugg:yah, I did a lot of the other stuff too..actually liked it better than alcohol..but alcohol was easier to get and cheaper too..
oh man..I have some scary memories of waking up and not remembering driving home...drove once from orange county to san diego and don't remember a mile of it..the goddess had a hand in it im sure..
hmhh:missed the reunion again....will tell more later...
winston:trying to figure out what to get for me for my birthday..looking for a goddess statue, but they are so expensive and never really found one I liked enough to spend that kind of money on..would love to have the statue of the goddess on the top right of my blog...
kath:thanks for the best wishes...64...woo, how scary is that?...
allan:I sure hope so..cause if I can do it..anyone can...really mean that too...
bluemomma:working on the computer..need to find out how to delete everything and install it myself...17 years..wow..it really is a long time...

Sling said...

Damm,..your sobriety is almost old enough to vote!..Congrat's on your anniversay yellerdawg!

Lily Strange said...

I often wonder how my son's life and my life would have been different if this dumb bipolar disorder had been PROPERLY diagnosed 10, 15 or 20 years sooner.
Damn medical professionals. Have to be "right" even to the detriment of their patients...but enough bitching. I need to save some for later!

Charlene said...

Way back [about 15 years ago] I knew a gal who started a little business creating goddess products. The only one I can remember is a t-shirt; white with lavender print that said "Goddess Great".

Her business didn't succeed. Probably because Kentucky is a bastion of Bible thumpers. Last I heard she was hole up in a cabin in the woods of Tennessee trying to convince publishers that she had the idea of "The Da Vinci Code" before Dan Brown.